need to regret

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hmm... i already mention that im not goanna address you unless for the important things only.
then i really do it. yesterday (3 august), my workstation in front of you. so, i couldn't see you. PC block us. then i just talk with you for important thing only. yupp..! i really do it. im give up. there does not have any good things if i like you. i didn't sure if you already know. hey! i did not mention or do anything which can show i like you. ggrr...!! today, i sat far from others. include you. but our TL ask me to buy food. why i need go with you.? oke. i will give cash my promise.huh! never talk to you unless ask you to bring food.. during we count the money. ouhh!!! so happy can sat in front of you, talk with you. ohhoo..!!! hey...! i knoe there's nothing for you. but i like it. ahaha! but i need to act like normal and serious. in deep of my heart, i try to throw away this feeling. i don't want have this feeling. im suffer with this feeling. coz it make me suffer coz miss you, suffer when you act like i not exist anymore.suffer when you more silent in group. im sorry and i will act like normal.. i appreciate this feeling appear in my heart and make me happy even for a while :)

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feeling story

yeah..!!! i have thing to me merapu.

oke! im seriously don't like the beginning of our day. you just silent and act like we did not know each other.
seriously don't like. but feel better after you ask what i want for break the fasting. im give up with my feeling after you act like we did not knoe. you pass in front of me but looks like i did not exist. oke.! better silent. don't want to address you anymore unless  for important thing. huh!

but (im smile back) you so cute when ask our TL to make a group conversation. wakaka... i think it for serious thing. actually it just chat with others. you became yourself to make me smile. yaww!!! thanx for tonight. at least i can smile with your teasing ... yeaakkk!!! :P
haish! if we like a person, we will like everything he do :)

scramble feeling

lets merapu...


I seriously miss that feeling. feeling like someone in silence.
others matched you and me, because you care about me and always disturb me. oopppss!! sorry... im not goana tell them i like you. huhu..

but i never felt this feeling. you name always  appear in my mind. feel something missed when i did not see you in one day. cant you believe it..? what's that haa..?? urrgghhh!! i don't like it..

what i like today..? when our TL ask you to join us this afternoon. I know why she do that. :)
yuppp ...! I am happy. more happy when you are just doing my request .. Pity you have to carry a lot. but I'm more happy because you still want to carry mine. when I ask you hold my wallet, you do not mind it. you just carry it even your hand already full.

happy when you sit in front of me. :) but im not happy with your joke. please la. I was kind of dignity. I do not like .. yes ...! I know you joked with me. but don't too much, oke!

im sorry for tonight incident. didn't mean to be angry at you. I was tension. you make stupid joke. I was angry just a joke. shocked...!!! when you no longer criticize me. just like i didn't exist in front of you.
hopefully.. we goana oke tomorrow. can't wait to see you..with your style disturb me.. wahh..!!! :)

by:: cik chachers

dendamkah aku?

assalamualaiku...!!

fisrtly, SALAM RAMADHAN.. esok da puasa. im excited. :)

sekian lama aku tinggalkan tempat untuk aku merapu ni... nak kata busy, takde la sangat. nak kata takde benda untuk aku merapu, tak la jugak.  yang pasti aku sangat bersyukur. sangat-sangat bersyukur diberi kesenangan. alhamdulillah aku dah tak payah bersesak naik public transport. tak payah bangun seawal 5 pagi kalau kerja pukul 9 pagi.. alhamdulillah :)


emm..! semalam joining my housemate makan BBQ steamboat kat Cheras.. seriously puas hati berbanding yang penah pergi sebelum ni.harga pun beza 3, 4 ringgit jek. steamboat ni da macam rutin bagi kami. sejak zaman belajar lagi. ada event group kami, steamboat jadi pilihan.:)


semalam pertanyaan bestie aku membuatkan aku berfikir sampai sekarang. sape tak teringat pada kawan baik sendiri. kawan yang sentiasa ada mase susah dan senang pada satu masa dulu.. tapi itu dulu. sekarang, patut lagi ke aku ingat lagi.? patut ke aku panggil kawan lagi.? mungkin sebab dulu aku diam, tidak mengeluarkan sebarang pendapat, berdiam diri lebih baik pada aku. tapi akhirnya, bila aku mula menyatakan sesuatu, kau hentam, kau perli kat FB. aku tak tahu apa yang kau cerita lagi pada orang.


aku ambik keputusan untuk diamkan diri masa kawan-kawan lain luahkan tak puas hati. sebab aku tahu kau tension dan aku pun tak nak tambah tension kau. bila dah reda aku pulak mintak maaf. niat hati nak terus terang perkara yang sebenar. aku tak rase aku ada masalah nan kau. kalau sebab aku tak teman kau makan hari-hari lepas balik kerja, benda tu aku tak rasa aku salah. kau nak kata aku buat cerita, kau silap. sebab kau yang tak ingat apa yang kau cakap. benda ni bukan pertama kali jadi. aku berani sumpah benda tu. masa aku mesej tu, aku mesej bagi pihak aku sorang. tapi KAU balas macam bagi pihak kami.! sumpah aku nangis masa tu.menangis sebab kau tak nampak salah kau. kau asyik salahkan orang. kau EGO! kau fikir kau je betul. ! ya! kau memang selalu tolong aku dulu.! tapi tak bermakna kau boleh pijak kepala aku! kau boleh buat apa sahaja yang kau suka pada aku! aku decide untuk diam lepas tu. malas nak bertekak sebab kau takkan mengaku salah kau.!


bila aku buka FB, kau perli ayat yang aku mesej kat wall kawan kau!. sumpah aku sentap. lagi sentap bila betina tu post kat wall kau tambah perli dengan ayat aku. yup! aku da benci betina tu dari awal sejak dye tuduh aku hasut kau! lepas dye cakap kurang ajar dengan aku  walaupun aku da cakap baik-baik nan dye. lepas tu dengan muka tak malu datang tido kat bilik aku.! huh!


bila orang tanya, penah tak aku ingat kau..? aku memang ada ingat tapi dengan cepat aku tingkah fikiran aku... "tak guna ingat orang macam kau! tak guna ada kawan mcm kau". aku akui kau banyak tolong aku dulu. hari tu, kau dengar cerita sebelah pihak. kau dengar cerita pasal kejadian dalam rumah tu dari betina tu jek. kau sendiri tahu mulut betina tu. kau sendiri pun penah kene. berkali-kali kot.orang takkan kurang ajar kalau betina tu tak kurang ajar. da masuk rumah orang, tak tahu nak hormat orang. kalau dye kurang ajar nan aku, memang la aku diam. tapi hari tu dye kurang ajar nan orang yang salah. nan orang yang mulut lancang jugak. nasib la!


aku tak rasa aku dendam. tapi aku takkan dan tak dapat maafkan kau.! sebab aku rasa tak guna aku nak maafkan kau.. kau sendiri pun tak penah sedar nan apa orang buat baik pada kau.! setelah sekian lama aku diam, malam ni aku lega...

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assez.chachers